Manchmal kann ich erahnen, dass die Wut ganz tief in mir drin so groß und so stark ist, dass ich damit gar nicht umgehen kann. Sie ist so groß, dass ich gar nicht die Kraft habe, sie auszudrücken - oder überhaupt wahrzunehmen und zuzulassen. Dann habe ich das Gefühl, diese Wut erdrückt mich. Sie schreit mich an, mich zu bewegen, aber sie drückt mich dabei ganz fest herunter.
Ich vermute: Hinter Depression steckt unfassbare Wut, die nicht raus kann.
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